Last Tuesday I found myself driving from Raleigh to the beach by myself, I stayed at home to take care of a few things while Dan went back to the beach and work on Monday. On the way I popped in a Michael Brown CD. I have listened to this particular CD about 10 times. It is funny how each time I do, I hear something different, this time I heard that everyone/thing stays here, they just change form. (badly paraphrased I am sure) As I sat with that thought after I got back to the beach, I made the intention to welcome Leah as is now in my every day life. This has been my intention each day as I arose, and often during the day she would be here, and I would just be with her as she is, and be grateful. Today as I was chopping green pepper I remembered how my mom would slice off the top circle of the pepper and give it to me to eat, and then later give it to Leah to eat. (my inner little girl always wondered why I didn't get the pepper any more, but that is another story!) As I was thinking about that, I felt Leah say to me, "you know your mom and dad are also here, are you willing to welcome them as they are now?" My thinking brain immediately said, NO! and I just witnessed it saying no, and returned to the feeling of my parents being here. Then the tears came, and I stared at the water in the sound and let them come, being with the feeling of welcoming my parents as they are now. As I did, something shifted, and I felt a part of my relationship with them heal. And then we all danced!
I have not yet talked about when I discovered Michael Brown's work in the course of my Samyama journey. Here is the link to his website if you are ready to go there now.
http://www.thepresenceportal.com/
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