Another Opportunity for Growth

I have been in Raleigh for a week now, working at the Raleigh office. Dan is still at the beach. I am aware how things are different during transition times, and yet, is that the way it is in each moment? Every moment is different from the next. There were several occurrences during this week that spun stories and touched places of fear that have not yet been integrated. These were all very familiar and in the past may have had me spinning with the story for a while before I came to my heart with the feelings...Ah yes, another opportunity for growth. I chose to meet each story as it was and feel the feelings that were there. What I discovered this time is that the fear was not as deep as it had been, my little girl climbed up in my lap, and I held her, and we sat with the fear. And in the next moment it had shifted and I was once again full of gratitude for this work, and the gentle way it takes me into my feelings.
While in Raleigh it will be a good opportunity to see clients face to face here. I welcome that opportunity.

Transitions and Stories

Transition time again, or is it always a transition and I am not always aware? What I have been aware of lately are my stories. So many stories! The good news it I recognize them almost immediately and they make me laugh. A sense of humor is good, and I particularly like mine. When I am overly serious, I know for sure I am lost in the stories, trying to make sense of them. I can hear Leah saying 'Lighten up mom'
I am getting ready to move to a new job. Here is the confusing part, it is in almost the same place, but we have not mobilized on the site yet...which means that I will be going home to Raleigh for a month or so. Then when we mobilbize I will be coming back to the beach. Dan is staying at this job longer, so he will be living at the beach, and I will be in Raleigh, and we will be meeting one place or the other on weekends. It always feels harder to me to stay present when I am in these kind of transition times. Now there is a story for you! Maybe I am more aware of my stories because I am present? It doesn't matter why I am aware of them, what does matter is that when I am aware of my stories, I can move beyond them and not be in a struggle with them. I do know that is when I feel stress the most, when I am believing my stories and trying to make sense of them. I have had several examples lately that things are not what they seem. Things that have made me laugh out loud they were so silly.
So if things are not what they seem, I am willing to be surprised and delighted.