Three Buildings in Three Days

Whew, what a weekend. Three of my buildings are turning over next week, December 2nd, 3rd and 4th. I have been working tirelessly with my team to get them ready for the owner walk throughs for the last several months. The last month has been particularly stressful, and a really good reminder to me to stay present. This weekend everyone left for the long Thanksgiving weekend. That left me to be here myself to shoulder all of the work. By Wednesday I was quite frazzled and did not want to hear everyone's frivolity as they made plans for a 4 day weekend, and looking forward to a good respite from the job. I was sleep deprived and more than a little triggered. The first lovely thing that happened is that Dan volunteered to come in with me. With that support, I slept well for the first time Wednesday night. We had a very restful Thanksgiving, by ourselves. This is the first one by ourselves ever. We are thankful for everyone we ever spent this day with, and sent good thoughts to Pete in Thailand.
Dan and I did manual labor to get the buildings ready, it is just what happens toward the end of the job. Saturday morning he let me sleep in, and I had a wonderful restorative morning. So here it is Sunday afternoon. I have cleaners at the buildings, and I will go back in a little while to check on them and stay to lock up. I did my best to stay present. I realized this weekend once again what it means to be a priestess. From this place I can do or not do whatever is here. I was again reminded that whatever I need arises in my everyday experiences, that is what my life is for. There is still a way to go before the buildings are completely ready. But I am not alone in this, I never have been.
Much gratitude and love to Dan, and to all my helpers, seen and unseen.

Happy Thanksgiving

Today I have so much gratitude for everyone and every moment that brought me to this one. Gratitude and Love.

The Dismembering of a Life

I find myself in more dismemberment and at the same time, large flashes of what is True. Dan and I are embarking on leaving the known and stepping into the unknown. To think we were ever in the known is an illusion, I know that better than anyone. It has been one of the huge lessons of the initiation of Leah's death. We are taking a conscious step into the unknown, willing to know when we know, picking up the breadcrumbs when they appear. It is exciting and terrifying. In the terrifying moments I watch myself trying to negotiate safety, at least what my ego defines as safety. And when I drop back into my heart and sit with it all, my heart knows that leaving everything and stepping into the unknown is True and Right. I also know I do not have to make the timetable for it, or do anything. There terror always asks, 'How will you know what to do???'
There is nothing to do. I remain open to receiving what is here for me in the moment, and all is given. Dan and I were talking about our latest gifts of inspiration, and I caught sight of all of the moments in our lives that had led us to that moment, and I am truly grateful. It is not lost on me that we have had these latest insights in the space of another November.
Only Love, and Gratitude.

Today's Intention

Today I am willing to be surprised and delighted.