I have recently been in touch with a precious younger child who feels as if she does not belong. I became aware of her some time ago, and I have been hanging out with her since then, just letting her feel what she feels and holding her where she is at. More recently in one of our exchanges she told me she wanted to do an art project. I have set up space in the beach house to make collages and she has been spending time there.
A common feeling when I am triggered by someone or something is a feeling of not belonging. As is my practice, I sit with the feeling with out condition, sometimes with my little girl if she appears in that moment. Last night I invited every part of myself that ever felt as if she did not belong to be with me. I sat with all of these Nancys at all of the ages that appeared. Some of them were very wary, some of them eager, some of them downright skeptical. I sat with all of them just as they were in that moment. I told them I welcomed all of them and that we all belong together. I told them they can make art, or write, or play in the ocean. I told them I will listen to them and give them what they need. I told them I love them. Big Sigh!!
Today when I woke up and got ready for my walk on the beach, I told them they could come with if they wanted. Some of them even came to work with me.
I feel so ................ no words can describe the feelings.
We are all here now, and welcome whoever else shows up. My intention is to continue to invite them in and allow them to be heard. This feels very integrating.
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