A New Samyama Experience

Yesterday I was hit with a wave of grief. It felt like Leah had died recently. I was at work, and had not had a wave this strong hit me for a very long time. I closed my office door and cried, and Samyama-d my feelings. Just letting them be as they were. I thought at the time how grateful I was for Samyama, that I could feel what I was feeling and not do anything, trusting that my heart could hold all that was there. After a while, the feelings shifted, and I went on with my day, holding all of it with me. When I got home, I sat with the feelings again, as they were in that moment, and I felt Leah's presence. I invited her to be with me as she is, without me needing to know what that is. I Samyama-d Leah! As I sat with her, my feelings of grief were dispersed. I truly felt gratitude that I can still be with her as she is now. I feel the grief when I want things to be different than they are. When I am with her, I am at peace. What a wonderful gift as we approach her birthday.